Official Day 1 of this Journey

Ok....Well, it is the start of day 1. So far so good. Glucose levels are not starting out all that great. High 300's! But I'm optimistic! Activity for the day? Well, I think I am going to clean on the house and get stuff in order. Desperately needs it! Planning on staying in for the next couple of days because of the snow coming in. I'm sure I will be dealing with the boys tomorrow with no school. I will put them to work too!

I will give todays stats later on this evening probably. Still have to do that picture! Be back soon!

Well....Beginnings I guess

Ok...so have decided to start a new diet. Not ready to say exactly what I am doing just yet. Want to wait and see if it will work. Or should I say, I will work! I am starting this with say all my stats....meaning all my "dr numbers". My hope is that, since I am putting it out there for EVERYONE to see, maybe I will actually do something about it. Trust me...they are not pretty. What is my goal? To lose anywhere from 80-120 pounds and look good in a wedding dress by November. Or at least better than I look now. I will add a "before" picture on here as soon as I can take one. Probably tonight. In the meantime, below are the important "stats".

ITEM                               CURRENT #                                  SHOULD BE #
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WEIGHT                             280                                                   175
BLOOD PRESSURE           148/90                                            <130/80
A1C                                      12.4                                                <6.5
HDL                                   UNKNOWN YET                             >50
LDL                                    UNKNOWN YET                            <70
CHOLESTOROL               UNKNOWN YET                             <200
TRIGLYCERYDES            UNKNOWN YET                              <150
BMI                                       42.6                                                  <25

WAIST                                    48.5"
HIPS                                        54"
THIGH                                     28"
CHEST                                    49"
NECK                                     44"
ARM                                       15"

INSULIN N                           113 UNITS
INSULIN R                              33 UNITS

Well, as you can see....not pretty. The "unknown yet" is because I just did that bloodwork yesterday. Will be a few days before I get those results. Feelings? Well, I'm excited and scared all at the same time. I have been overweight ALL my life. I'm almost 36 yrs old and have never known what it is like to really have someone look at me "lustfully". Not that I really want that now....I'm married, but just to know I can wear some of the things thinner people wear. I wont have to go to the "fat people section" anymore. Besides, have you looked at fat people clothes? They are not as cute as skinny clothes. I promise this, though. I will NEVER wear a bikini or a mini skirt or anything that shows my mid-driff. I am in my 30's and I am respectable. My husband and I are renewing our vows in November. I really want to look good in a wedding dress. I really want to not be so afraid of someone taking my picture. I want more energy. I want to feel good. I want a better sex life. I want to be less diabetic. Well, you know what I mean. I dont want to take so much insulin. Actually, no....I claim it! BY THE GRACE OF GOD, I WILL NOT BE DIABETIC WHEN I LOSE THE WEIGHT!!! I want a baby. I want a second chance at a better life for myself. I have a great family. It's not a matter of wanting another family. I want to LIVE!!!